Creative Journal - Gerardo Morillo

[jerrymp]

Disclaimer:

This journal is intended to convey insight on human nature. Some might be a reflection on my own psyche. Some is just relaying the condition of reality. Some is just storytelling in a way to convey an idea. Whatever, the case, I hope you have fun enjoying the readings here. There are intended to be EDUCATIONAL while being ENTERTAINING. Without further ADO let's begin...

 

Attack of The Killer Penguins...

 

Do you seem them they are always watching...

They are always listening...

Sometimes I can't go to sleep knowing that the Killer Penguin is just around the corner ought to get me.

But I can reassure you I am not crazy...

I am not schizoWHATEVER.

You telling me you don't see those penguins??

*looks in shock*

This can't be...

Either you are stuck in the lower planes or perhaps I am really just hallucinating...

But, I would never dare to admit I am crazy.

I don't want to end up with a white stray jacket and in the psyche world with all those wack jobs.

But maybe those are the normal people whose bodies have left the physical world and are in more in the "spiritual world." 

Some say when they go in Coma they discover God.

Or the times of near death experiences some people claim they encoutered a divine being.

Look there it is right there!! Do you see? It's the penguins. 

It's listening to our convo. 

It's trying to spy on us and collect data on us to report back to the Reptile warlord whose eating human brains.

Oh right, so you don't believe me?

But, you can believe the world is Flat, right?

Ridiculous.

Hold on let's continue this conversation some other time.

The penguins are too close and watching and listening to our every move.

Let me go buy some BOOZE so I can DROWN the PAIN AWAY.

But, I am afraid of the things I do when I get drunk.

I can get very abusive.

But, I make sure to censor all the bad things that I commit, so I don't ruin my reputation.

Image is everything in today's world.

And no I am not a wack job - you obviously are just stuck in a place where you cannot just SEE.

But when your eyes open you can see ALL.

And then you'll be like me.

Always looking around the corner making sure no one is watching.

LOOK THERE ARE THE PENGUINS. 

PLEASE YOU GOTTA HELP ME!!

THEY ARE COMING FOR ME!!!!!!

They know I ascending into the level of the Gods.

And THEY are trying to stop me before I CAN ACCOMPLISH MY MISSION.

Many people in the past had a sort of GOD COMPLEX, but not me.

I know where I STAND.

 

[jerrymp]

Always Plugged In

Most of the time when I talk to people, people don't really know what to do with me.

I don't blame them, to be frank.

They notice I don't talk much.

Some people make me feel comfortable then I talk somewhat about myself.

And most of the time I instantly REGRET it.

But, It doesn't surprise me.

Most people care only about their problems and in their own interest.

So when I start talking about myself my emotions start to rise, because, I am a fairly sensitive guy. 

I'm like right, why did I think this time would be different. And I have this happen multiple times.

I have done multiple iterations of human conversations.

So, I am always left wondering. What did they really want me to tell them?

Do they want me to just be there listening to them go on about themselves?

I am a great human being, and I have no problem with this.

But, then when I talk about myself I notice..

Then do this where they make it about them again.

And like I said I have no problem. But, because, I am sensitive I pick up they are selfish animals. And I feel slightly disappointed because I wanted to make a connection as well. 

Being extraordinary aware and psychiclike makes people act very weird around you. 

If you meet me down the street just tell me hi and move on to your next task. 

And if you like me where you think I am cool, take down my number and we can hang out. Most of the time I reserve my time for only really cool people but as a Man of God, I don't mind interacting with anyone and everyone.

I won't get offended I promise. But, then are those times when I do want to make a human connection.

But once more, it's like do I always want to be in performance mode. Because I run into someone in the street am I always so automatically turn into this charismatic person. 

Because I tell you BEING ON ALL THE TIME is extremely stressful.

I feel like one of those celebrities nowadays running away from the paparazzi.

Unfortunately, I don't have celebrity fame to leverage the halo + authority effect. 

Which just makes them a bit off...Because they sense I am different, almost superior to them, but they have no respect for it because it conflicts with their EGO? 

But if I get status they start to act normal?

This leaves me feeling like a celebrity always running from all these people. 

Listen, I tell you, my spirit is naturally pure. I am of the few human beings alive closest to Jesus Christ.

But, I still operate to man laws.

So it's not like I hate interacting with humans. 

But, it's get super exhausting always being on. 

So obviously you must always be on to ensure HIGH PERFORMANCES for human you are interacting with.

They say no...

But it's bullshit because they are the first to complain when things are not going their way. 

 

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[jerrymp]

Surpassing Ego Issues

When I was a child everyone used to love me.

Then when I became an adult they started disliking me.

I use to ask a lot of questions as a kid and I used to love going up to the grown up and learning everything they could teach me.

There was a genuine desire to learn. They sensed it naturally they enjoyed sharing their wisdom with me. Perhaps, their ego got boosted because it was a way for them to share.

I didn't mind though, since I was a kid, in fact when they taught me I started to cry because I greatly appreciated them taking the time to teach me something.

And to be honest I wanted to GIVE PEOPLE THAT SAME FEELING of DEEP APPRECIATIONS THAT BROUGHT ME TO TEARS...

As a kid not many people were so nice to me in that way.

But, what I didn't realize is I also GAVE THEM SOMETHING in return.

Which was the ability to express themselves and somewhat padded their own egos.

I genuinely enjoyed listening to whatever they had to say.

Fast forward today, I have surpassed almost single human I know and I ACTUALLY FELT BAD for it. 

They wanted to keep the same usual dynamic of me being the "follower" and once I surpassed them it became an issue.

I learned too much too soon and at some point my friendships were just not the same.

I had a dire desire to learn everything I could.

Becoming my BEST VERSION was always my dream.

But, I noticed something. Those same people I surpassed never gave me the same courtesy of listening to me teach them.

They wanted to hang on to the old dynamic of me the "follower" because it boosted their ego.

To be honest this made me feel bad...

I had to drop multiple friendships because at some point I surpassed them and it was clear I wasn't getting the same level of respect I gave them as I was the on the "lower" level.

It became too awkward to sustain the relationship.

Which I didn't understand because when I was a kid I LOVED LEARNING from people. ANything they had to say. More than anything I LOVED making that connection and making everyone happy. 

And they all LOVED ME FOR THIS.

Then I became a grownup and they sense I am superior now and it's awkward as hell for me. 

In fact, some people feel offended by the fact that I am "humble"

I am not really humble because nothing exists.

So the idea of humility for me is actually too WEAK of a WORD.

Let's have fun...Share...Play together...

What happened to those days...

 

[jerrymp]

2 Funerals Today

One of my buddies has been hinting a couple of things lately.

He probably thinks I am not getting the hint.

But, I see the hints. I love you my friend.

You will always be like a hero to me. Perhaps, you may never know how much you changed my life. 

When I was at rock bottom there you took the time to assist me and happily got rewarded for it.

There is a school I have been going to lately. 

I've been working on getting my IT CERTS to get a job.

But, a recent event crashing hard.

And I realize I don't want to be a programmed robot.

Always doing what they want me to do without a single care for what I want.

But it's only fair, I suppose?

That's just the way the world works.

So my buddy, Thank You for everything.

You will always be a hero in my heart.

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